Media Recap 2024

2 January 2025
Table of Contents
  1. Film & Television
  2. Music
  3. Games
  4. Books
  5. Conclusion
  6. Endnotes

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After belabouring my favourite media throughout the year on this website, I must now of course collect it all into a single incredibly overwrought blog post.

It’s like this: these are my personal media highlights, rather than a best of list. I’m including the most memorable, impactful, or beloved works of—creative genius, or something, that I’ve encountered this year. I’m not a critic; I am mostly just talking about things I liked. These are tremendous to me. I hope they can be tremendous to you, too.

Moomins comic panel. Moomintroll says, 'But you lead such an exciting life!', to which Snufkin responds, 'Well, I let little things happen to me and then I think they are tremendous.'
moomins. I think about this every day.

This year, I watched fewer things—32 movies and 12 tv shows, versus last year’s 44 movies, 15 shows. Half of those movies were rewatches, and I started and dropped a lot of shows.

The Fall

In 1920s Los Angeles, a bedridden patient in a hospital captivates a young girl with a fantastic tale of heroes, myths, and villains on a desert island.

I rewatched The Fall, a cult classic film from 2006 directed by Tarsem Singh. It is, famously, a beautiful movie, known for its landscapes—shot in 28 countries!—as well as the performance of Catinca, its child actress.

In my memory, The Fall is beautiful and sad. When I first watched it maybe a decade ago, I was in a different place and I connected too well with its suicidal protagonist. The scene I remembered the most was not one of the film’s cinematic fantasy sequences but rather one of the hospital scenes.

Ten years later, I am not so affected by that hospital. I enjoy the beautiful landscapes so much more (though the fact that I watched this in a movie theatre rather than a laptop screen helped). And I finally understand what the film is saying: a story lives in both the storyteller and the listener.

In my generation, once you saw a movie, it was really hard to see it again; you had a certain kind of nostalgia. You would think that this movie you saw as a kid was so amazing, but then you sit down as a grown up with your friends and show it to them, and they go, “But this is a piece of shit,” and you go, “Yeah, I kind of agree”—you had changed it in your head. So that was always true about storytelling: you’d change it in your head. This is a phenomenon that I think the newer generation won’t be that familiar with. Now, people can keep looking at film clips on YouTube or whatever, so the film kind of keeps up with how you remember it. But back then, you saw it and as you grew, the story changed and evolved—and you have to walk away for five, ten years at least to have that happen.

Magical Mystery Tour: Tarsem on “The Fall”

Smarter people than me have written about the film and its meaning. What I didn’t expect, however, was to be so enamoured by the behind-the-scenes story of how it was made. Molly Templeton writes, “This story, like most stories, gets romanticized to varying degrees; this is a movie that almost begs to be mythologized.”

The second story here is of The Fall’s creation: a self-funded labour of love, shot in 28 countries over four years, critically panned, and never widely released or distributed, until this year.

And it happened at the right time. My Italian girlfriend dumped me. I met Catinca, and I’d been looking for the child, boy or girl, for the film for seven years. I thought, We make the movie now, or like my brother used to say, we’ll be two old guys with a lot of money that are talking about a movie that they’ll never make. I told my brother, “Sell everything. I want to have nothing.” I’ll never be in that position again, because now I have a son. You gotta give him something to carry on and carry on. But back then, it was like, “Fuck it, burn the bridges behind me. Let’s go make this.”

—Tarsem Singh in Vulture

How absolutely romantic indeed. He thought about this for years, and made so much money doing commercial work (necessary!), and then spent it all making this. And then no one wanted it, and it had a cult following but no wide streaming or physical release—until 2024. And here we are.

Further reading:

Television highlight

Arcane

Arcane is incredible. You already know this! Everything to say about it has already been said (it’s beautiful, stunning, etc.), so what’s left for me is the hyperspecific, nerdy shit:

  • The painterly art style is probably my favourite thing about its visuals. In The Art and Making of Arcane, Fortiche talks about how they wanted it to look like concept art for animation:

    […] eventually computer-generated 3-D animation is going to age, ‘Whereas if the image is based on handmade artistic talent, that’s going to perdure.’

    — Jérôme Combe (p.173)

  • I love messy textures, visible brushstrokes, and all that jazz. Every frame in Arcane really is—haha—like a painting. I love how they do faces! The highlight on the inner corners!!! Probably my favourite detail, it’s just so satisfying.
  • The metallics always look so good, especially golds—just look at Mel, who is the most beautiful character in a series full of beautiful characters. The gold accents on her bottom lids!! And there are the gold accents on Cait’s outfit. The gold on those robots (hello, kintsugi).
Arcane screenshot of a closeup of Mel's face.
mel
  • Whenever Fortiche plays with style—what they call music videos, “a musical scene over a song with a distinctive graphic treatment” (p.208)—is so much fun. Like the charcoal drawings in S2E1, the comic book montage of the enforcers (S2E3), the watercolour flashback of Powder & Vi (S2E8). And, of course. That dance scene. I love this kind of style experimentation.
    • “What if the fight was a music video?” they asked about S1E7.
    • What if we borrowed from a different medium? This is really where the magic happens, and it makes my tiny little brain want to explode, knowing that there are infinite creative directions to take something, beyond what’s conventional.
Arcane screenshot of Caitlyn
comic book-style montage
  • The music. Ma Meilleure Ennemie is, of course, tragic; The Line for Viktor; Wasteland for Jinx; Remember Me for, well, a lot of people…; Fantastic for Cait and Vi. I haven’t listened to much else than the soundtrack for the past month.
  • Other memorable bits: Sevika’s slot machine arm is so fun (they mention in the artbook how the challenge was making it not anatomically accurate!!); that bullet ricochet (oh my god); “[redacted], I don’t fucking care” (oh my god); “only you can show me this” (I am deceased); the entire cosmic plane or whatever it’s called, you know; I’ve already mentioned this, but, the dance. Her eye makeup, in that scene. Pretend like it’s the first time.

I am unwell about it. It’s like how I felt after seeing Spider-Verse last year. I feel like my life is changed. I feel inspired.

Other Film & TV

Look Back

Dir. Kiyotaka Oshiyama — Based on the manga by Tatsuki Fujimoto — 2024

The overly confident Fujino and the shut-in Kyomoto couldn’t be more different, but a love of drawing manga brings these two small-town girls together.

I saw this in theatres not knowing anything about it. It’s delightfully relatable—it captures the energy of being a young, obnoxious artist so well—and then it grabs you by the throat and doesn’t let go. People were crying all over the place. I’m crying again, just writing this.

It asks, why do you draw? The protagonist, Fujino, says that drawing manga is full of awful, hard work, yet she’s done it her entire life. Why does she do it? Why do any of us submit to the mortifying ordeal of creating art?

(We do it for what it’s always about: the rewards of being loved.)

Related listening: the theme Light song by haruka nakamura

Paprika

Dir. Satoshi Kon — 2006

When a machine that allows therapists to enter their patient’s dreams is stolen, all hell breaks loose. Only a young female therapist can stop it and recover it before damage is done: Paprika.

Paprika is known for its surreal visuals. Like with The Fall, I first watched Paprika on a shitty little laptop screen many years ago. Earlier this year, it played in theatres as part of a Satoshi Kon celebration, so I jumped at the chance to see it. It’s really so magical and beautiful.

Related watching:

The Bear

Seasons 2–3

Season two was perfect: I love character development, and there was so much of it. My favourite episodes were the two standouts: S2E6 Fishes, with its mounting anxiety and chaos, and S2E7 Forks. Richie, that beautiful bastard, has his moment and it feels so earned. The catharsis! I love growth! I love Love Story by Taylor Swift!

Video essays

Ironically, I don’t watch much YouTube. I’m a cranky millennial who hates video, and also I struggle more with processing speech than text, and I prefer the flexibility and efficiency of reading. But I know I’m missing out on a lot of great stuff, so I’m trying to broaden my horizons.

Since this is a new category, there’s some overlap with 2023.

Plagiarism and You(Tube)

By Hbomberguy — December 2, 2023

The four-hour video essay that was so widely talked about that even I sat down to watch it, and then I rewatched it as I was working on this post. It’s an entertaining video, engaging through its entire runtime, and Harry Brewis approaches the topic of plagiarism with a lot of humour. He goes through so many examples of YouTubers plagiarizing their videos, how they did it, why they did it, how they defended themselves…it’s very messy!

But he also takes it seriously: why does it matter that these YouTubers have stolen the work of others? Why is it important for people to be credited and known? It is more than just insular YouTube drama.

Maybe it’s a good idea to have some standards for not stealing. Maybe.

In current discourse, YouTubers simultaneously present as the forefront of a new medium, creative voices that need to be taken seriously as part of the next generation of media. And also uwu small beans little babies who shouldn’t be taken seriously when they rip someone off and make tens of thousands of dollars doing it. (3:36:12)

Related intervew: Hbomberguy Didn’t Want to Make That 4-Hour Plagiarism Video by Rebecca Alter in Vulture

Everything Is Content Now

By Patrick (H) Willems — August 23, 2023

About things like the devaluing of creative labour (this was released during the 2023 WGA and SAG-AFTRA strikes) and the flattening of all types of creative work into “content.”

I too have to stop myself from calling things “content” out of convenience. If there’s a more precise word, I’ll use that.

In general, watching Patrick’s channel has also properly shamed me about doing the whole watch-movie-in-the-background thing—in this video, he talks about streaming services wanting “second-screen content” for that exact purpose, which is insulting! I’m trying to be better about it.

Art in the Pre-Apocalypse

By Jacob Geller — September 4, 2023

This is the only Jacob Geller video essay I’ve seen (I’m sorry, I ordered his book, I can’t wait to engage with more of his work) and it’s a really gorgeous meditation on the pre-apocalypse—the before the world ends—as seen in various books, movies, and games.

In his words: “This is an essay about catastrophe and death and despair and hope and two dozen other things.” And hope. It is a hopeful video essay.

Post-apocalypse is easy. When the great defining event of the world is in the rearview mirror, characters in post-apocalyptic stories are free to grapple with smaller, more individual crises. What are they going to do? Unexplode the bombs? Unscorch the Earth?

Setting a story in the pre-apocalypse presents characters with similarly impossible challenges, but this time the stakes are so high that to NOT do anything would be…morally contemptible? Right? Clive [FFXVI] has a moral obligation to stop Zettaflare, doesn’t he? When the alternative is a burned world? (23:07)

Cabel Sasser’s XOXO talk

XOXO Festival — August 2024

I was fortunate to see Cabel Sasser present this at XOXO Festival this year, and it was a whole experience to be in that room. It’s about a McDonald’s mural—“the Sistine Chapel of McDonald’s wall art”—and legacy.

“Appreciate everything endlessly,” he says, and yeah, that’s really the heart of it, isn’t it? And maybe, just maybe, we can all live forever.

And everything else

I watched A Family Affair and Bridesmaids on a bachelorette trip, neither of which I enjoyed, but the communal yelling at the TV was fun; my descent into Batman-related media (more on that in the Books section) included Nolan’s Dark Knight trilogy, Batman: The Animated Series, and Young Justice; other beautiful animation I enjoyed were Suzume and Metropolis; the only show I continue to keep up with is Jet Lag: The Game, which remains impressively entertaining; I finally watched Fight Club, which I had somehow never been spoiled for.

Digital painting of Chappell Roan, holding a sword. She's wearing a long green robe over a long sheer red dress. She has dramatic metal nail extensions.

I’ll confess: I don’t have any literacy in music, so this will be the most vibes-based section. I liked this song because it was good; it was good because I liked it; etc.

Ink bust sketch of Chappell Roan

Chappell Roan

Artist Highlight #1

Like everyone else this year, I got really into Chappell Roan. Her music is—perfect? I love pop music and the pop girlies.

Good Luck, Babe! is my song of the year. The perfect bridge; the vicious well I told you so’s; the graphic design is my passion lyric video; the sapphism; you’d have to stop the world just to stop the feeling. Chappell Roan, I am bewitched!!!

Other obsessions include: Red Wine Supernova (so fun n flirty), My Kink is Karma (deliciously destructive), and Pink Pony Club (this live performance is my Roman Empire).

Ink half-body sketch of Vaundy

Vaundy

Artist Highlight #2

I first listened to Vaundy late last year, and Odoriko showed up on my top 2023 songs list. I listened to a lot more of his stuff this year. Odoriko remains one of my favourites, and this year Koikaze ni nosete (恋風邪にのせて) topped my most-listened to songs list on Sp*tify. Tokyo Flash is a whole vibe. I like Omokage, which he produced and is performed by milet, Aimer, and Lilas Ikuta. Uh. Songs good. I like them.

Favourite songs

Music Videos

I don’t really watch music videos unless 1) they’re from my favourite kpop artists, or 2) my YouTube algorithm autoplays them, which is presently showing me a lot of Japanese music, on account of listening to a bunch of Vaundy.

我愛你 (Wo ai ni)

Cody・Lee(李)

I’m obsessed with this song, the styling, and colours. It made me want to use a red/yellow palette for a while, and also go eat dim sum.

Sleep Walking Orchestra

BUMP OF CHICKEN

This MV is so much fun. It’s the opening theme for Dungeon Meshi and it uses a bunch of video game and storybook styles to show an RPG party. Super cute!!

wasurerarenaino

Sakanaction

I love 80s (I think it’s 80s?) vibes! The dancing, the camera movements, the palm tree background, the outfits…

Concerts

I went to four concerts this year!

  • Glass Beams: I discovered them this year and was excited they were performing here. Fav song: Kong.
  • St. Vincent: yay Los Ageless <3<3
  • Michael Kiwanuka + Brittany Howard: was so excited about You Ain’t The Problem!!
  • Across the Spider-Verse Live in Concert: obviously I am still obsessed with this movie and it was so exciting to watch it with the soundtrack performed live. People cheered at all the exciting parts (which were many) and it was so much fun!! They performed the ending title sequence which I didn’t expect!! Perfect movie and score!!!

Games

As is the case every year, Destiny 2 was the predominant object of my fixation, though it ebbed and flowed depending on how exciting the season was. I’ve officially reached 3000+ hours logged in Steam, which is a truly horrific number to behold, but it’s not like I’m surprised by it anymore. It’s more like grudging acceptance, at this point.

Steam recap, where I played 14 games, had 42 achievements, 243 sessions, and 7 new games. Top five games by playtime: Destiny (82%), Final Fantasy XIV (6%), Stardew Valley (5%), Dave the Diver (2%), and Tiny Glade (less than 1%).

Destiny 2

Note: This is very indulgent section that will be comprehensible to maybe the five Destiny sickos who read my website.

I say this every time, but: Destiny is the most beautiful game in the world. It’s terribly good at its space wizards and aliens setting. Every time I see a brand new skybox—a skybox!—it’s the most incredible thing I’ve ever seen and I take screenshots of it, even though my capture ability is awful and I never go back to look at them anyway. But they are beautiful, and I am compelled.

Destiny screenshot. First-person view looking downward at a purple nebulous sky.Various pillars extend down into that space.
is this the sky or the floor?
Two guardians dancing in front of a dark nebulous sky.
iconoclast
A fancy nebulous sky featuring streaks of yellow light emerging from a bright yellow spot, perhaps some kind of star, bracketed by wisps of clouds. Or the space equivalent of such a thing.
vesper's host. you spend like two seconds here—this is where you load in before immediately scampering into a spaceship. yet the sky just fucking looks Like That

The Pantheon

I did three weeks of Pantheon! It was a fun time, despite the anguish and suffering and so forth. The modifiers made it so challenging and interesting. Highlights:

  • Sunshot was the MVP, particularly on solar surge.
  • There was this Nezarec Sublime LFG I joined that went on for way too long and all we did was get thrashed around in Explicator and then destroyed in Atraks and then it was like 2am and we all had to work the next day, and I gave up on week four and Godslayer.
  • The Explicator fire tornadoes, lol, lmao
  • Rhulk cheese strats were extremely funny (bait him into zooming off the map) — I actually did Rhulk twice, once legit (quadruple Thundercrash + Thunderlord) and once cheesed. I finally got Collective Obligation out of it!
Atraks encounter. Looking down at my three dead teammates. One tormentor looms over them, and a second tormentor looks up at me.
typical atraks experience

I don’t even change my emblem—I’ve been using ‘Share a Glass’, the VOG sherpa emblem, for a couple of years now—so the proof of my Pantheon achievements go unseen. Ah well. Now you all know about it, at least.

The Final Shape

A banger expansion!!! Highlights:

  • I’m a sucker for pyramid architecture as well as weird Witness-terraformed environments. I loved all the fucked up body horror sculptures (the hands! screaming faces! sliced up geometry!) and spooky vibes.
  • I can’t say much about the story, because I’m one of those horrible gamers who don’t pay attention to lore. It seemed good though, from what I could follow! The relationship between Ghost + Guardian was really sweet.
  • Everything was fun and challenging. The new Dread were scary. Every time one of the bats screamed at me, I was like, wtf tinnitus?? The Subjugators were terrifying and also, you know, very pretty.
  • Excision was a great mission to cap it all off. I love chaos! Grandmaster Excision was even funnier. Love to load into it and immediately get killed, along with half the team, before anyone could even plant a rally flag.

Related: The Final Shape artwork on ArtStation

Salvation’s Edge

I love day one raiding, and have attempted each one ever since the reprised Vault of Glass. I went into this one cautiously optimistic—haha, what if it’s like Root of Nightmares? still hard, but doable?—and then it turned out that Salvation’s Edge was obscenely, undoably hard. I spent at least twelve hours doing that first encounter! Twelve hours! In Substratum! Fucking ridiculous. After we cleared it, we stumbled our way to the second encounter arena to take photos and then disbanded. Truly a classic Destiny experience, 2/10, would do again.

Off contest mode, SE remains quite challenging—though blasting our way through Substratum on normal mode was hilarious. The Herald boss is really satisfying, mechanically. Verity is beautiful, and I would argue it’s easier to dissect than to do whatever shape-juggling inside. The shape memes were good. I don’t love the third or fifth encounters, but I got the raid exotic on my third clear so I suppose I never have to do it again?

My guardian statue in Verity, holding a triangle.
it goes in the square hole

To understand the unique brain energy of this game, what compels us to devote our lives and souls to it, this article on PC Gamer really captures it: Yesterday I ignored 10 tornado warnings to finish a Destiny 2 raid, didn’t get the exotic drop, and disappointed my fiancée. Is there some sort of lesson here?

Other things

Dual Destiny is such a fun exotic mission with its mechanics—clock notation! lol!—and CHOOSE PEACE/KILL ending. I did so many overthrows in the Pale Heart because I was bored and just wanted to shoot things. I don’t even use my pile of Ergo Sums, which now collect considerable dust in my vault. I am never not using a rocket sidearm. If it’s not a rocket sidearm, I don’t want it. Double special meta rules. I still suck at PVP but continue to chase the thrill of Ruinous Effigy dunking.

Top PVE weapons. Kinetic: The Call with nearly 5000 kills, then Witherhoard with 1800. Energy: Indebted Kindness with 6200, then Sunshot with 1300. Power: Pro Memoria with 1500, then Commemoration with 1440; One Thousand Voices in fifth place with 467.
charlemagne stats from episode: echoes. verglas curve and dragon's breath are from doing their catalysts; 1KV is from that one unlimited sword ammo week where 1K was a sword, lmao, i used it in a gm and it was extremely funny

Other games

Final Fantasy XIV

After a zillion years, I made it to the award-winning expansion Heavensward. I finished the base campaign of A Realm Reborn two entire years ago, and then slogged through all of the post-campaign stuff. But then at the end, I had to sit and watch a 40-minute cutscene, and this was so egregious to me (remember: I hate video) that I put it off for at least six months.

When I finally did get around to it, it was the most engaged I had ever been in the entirety of my FFXIV experience. What a bananas sequence of events!!

Unfortunately, my subscription ran out and I am unable to play anymore unless I decide to fork over twenty dollars again. Maybe sometime next year. Now, I just watch my friends post screenshots and do activities together in Discord, like I am sad squidward looking out window.

Stardew Valley

I’ve been playing co-op with my friends every week, and we’re almost to Year 1 Winter. I’ve played several different farms over the past few years, so it’s nice to settle into familiar game mechanics (well, as much settling as you can do when also trying to optimize every second of every day) and hang out on a regular basis.

Balatro

There was a couple of weeks in the fall where I got really into Balatro and then dropped off, which is probably for the best. I’ve made it to Black Stake but I’m admittedly not very good at it. I feel like I need to start watching guides or something.

Balatro stats. Best hand: 21.7 million. Highest ante: 12. Most played hand: two pair. Progress: 25%.
Most played jokers. Top 3 are: Photograph, Blue Joker, and Abstract Joker.

Related reading:

Good for him!

Sudoku

I got back into playing Good Sudoku on iOS, which I had first gotten into a few years ago. This time, I’ve progressed enough to do the highest difficulty puzzles, though most of the time I use hints to solve them.

Y-Wing might be my favourite technique? I find it both annoying to spot and very logically satisfying.

Related watching: The Miracle Sudoku by Cracking the Cryptic on YouTube — it’s super fun to watch someone solve their way through a seemingly impossible puzzle. He makes it look so easy!

This was less of a reading year for me. I read one novel (a category I will conspicuously omit here) and a number of art reference books. Most notably, I got into DC comics towards the end of the year, which is funny and embarrassing because it makes me feel like I’m twenty again and getting into Marvel comics, which I have since left behind. So I’ve been reading a bunch of comics in the past few weeks and watching Batman-related media.

Comics

I’ve said this before, but to me, comics are the perfect medium. My last three homepage redesigns have been comics; I look forward to the local comics festival every year; I most admire the technical skill of comics artists.

There is really no shortage to brilliance happening here, and my ventures into the medium are embarrassingly limited. Next year I will try to do better.

Wayne Family Adventures

Art by Starbite and written by CRC Payne

My first foray into the world of Batman that captured my interest. It’s an official DC webtoon, but tonally it’s light-hearted. It seems the best way to my heart is slice-of-life? In my mind, the Wayne family is full of love and happiness and nothing bad ever happens to them. Certainly, no one has ever, uh, died.

Batman: Year One

Written by Frank Miller and illustrated by David Mazzucchelli

My first Batman comic! I love the art: its use of shadows, Gotham’s noir atmosphere, the way the characters are drawn.

A Guest in the House

By E.M. Carroll

A weird, surreal mystery/horror. E.M. Carroll’s art is gorgeous and sets a great eerie atmosphere.

The Guy She Was Interested in Wasn’t a Guy At All

By Sumiko Arai

THE CUTEST MANGA IN THE WORLD!!! This has me kicking my feet and giggling. It’s about two high school girls who bond over their love of Western music and then FALL IN LOVE and it’s VERY cute, very doki doki, springtime of youth. The art is so sparkly and green.

Also, this is a fun example of a series being born from social media—it was originally posted to Twitter, so each chapter is four pages long due to Twitter’s limit of four images per tweet.

Watchmen

Written by Alan Moore and illustrated by Dave Gibbons

This was my first time rereading Watchmen while actively being into superhero comics. Every time the characters talked about how ridiculous the concept of costumed crime-fighting was, it made me think about how ridiculous Batman is. Who watches the Watchmen?

The art is a delight, as always.

Art & Reference

I’ve been buying more art books lately, because I’ve realized that owning physical copies of artwork is satisfying and I will actually look at them, versus novels and non-fiction books that serve as props for my cosplay of a person who reads.

Internet writing

I’ve linked to these in my weeknotes, but here’s a few of the most memorable.

research as leisure activity

By Celine Nguyen in personal canon — May 27, 2024

The idea of research as leisure activity has stayed with me because it seems to describe a kind of intellectual inquiry that comes from idiosyncratic passion and interest. It’s not about the formal credentials. It’s fundamentally about play. It seems to describe a life where it’s just fun to be reading, learning, writing, and collaborating on ideas.

Should this be a map or 500 maps?

By Elan Ullendorff in escape the algorithm — June 11, 2024

When you see a slightly generic news story design, you’re seeing the solution to the problem: how do I make this work for any headline, any image, any tone, any audience? How do I make this as adaptable as possible? The question of “what does this story want?” becomes subsumed into the larger goal of malleability and efficiency. A template, not a story. A map, not 500 maps.

the experience of completing a sketchbook for my japan trip

By Winnie Lim — January 21, 2024

I thought about this all the time throughout the year.

What is the point of working on and completing a sketchbook? In practical terms – none. But the entire process enriched my soul deeply. Each time I completed a spread it feels like I painted another layer of my soul. It is a full circle: having an experience that becomes a memory, pulling out that memory to make art out of it, then holding that creation in my own hands and seeing that memory take a concrete form – it enhances and solidifies the original experience that would otherwise have been quickly forgotten. We could probably do something similar with photos, but somehow there is alchemy in the act of drawing, as though etching the memory deeper in a bodily manner. It is no longer merely visual, I have used my body and breath to record this.

If Look Back is about the external rewards of creating art—the validation, the connection—then this is about the internal, the enriching of the soul, the permanence given to memory.

In conclusion

What a year of surprising and beautiful things. I didn’t expect to be so enamoured by the story of The Fall, or for Arcane season two to be so devastatingly good, or to care so much about a McDonald’s mural, or to continue to be awed by Destiny as though I didn’t already know that it’s beautiful, or to find something appealing about Batman for the first time in my life, and so on! And there will be more next year. How exciting.

In lieu of setting goals I will not complete, I shall end this by reiterating Cabel Sasser’s words of wisdom: “appreciate everything endlessly.”

Thanks for reading!